Posts tagged poetry

Posted 3 months ago

Scatter Brain

Let’s paint the roses red before I start to feel blue
The tips of your toes are ice cold
But I don’t care, have I ever told you I loved you?
You’re giving me that look again
Hello again my dear old friend
Our lips have never met til now though I guarantee they’ll meet again
Let’s arch our backs because we feel primitive
The sounds you make go with your rhythm
Pops says don’t go out the towns too urban
You slide your hand up my skirt cause we’re flirtin
When you are near I miss you
But when you are far I ache for you
Let’s celebrate for no reason
Tis the season for free love and treason
You fall asleep on my chest so I hope you hear my heart beating
I hope yours is beating just as fast
I will ask you for directions and never understand math
But my pen will speak for my scatter brain
When you make me blush there’s only one thing I have to say
Let’s be together
Please stay

Posted 4 months ago

I will love you

Will you love me in the morning when I have sleepy eyes and bed head?
Will you love me when my cheeks are burning bright red?
Will you love me even if I push your buttons past your wits ends?
Will you love me in the evening when the stars become our only friends?

I will love you while the sunrises and sunsets.
I will love you when you flatter me and I blush bright red.
I will love you when you loathe me even though its all pretend.
I will love you in the moonlight guided by the stars lights again and again.

Posted 4 months ago

I will love you

Will you love me in the morning when I have sleepy eyes and bed head?
Will you love me when my cheeks are burning bright red?
Will you love me even if I push your buttons past your wits ends?
Will you love me in the evening when the stars become our only friends?

I will love you while the sunrises and sunsets.
I will love you when you flatter me and I blush bright red.
I will love you when you loathe me even though its all pretend.
I will love you in the moonlight guided by the stars lights again and again.

Posted 4 months ago

Close your eyes.

Close your weary eyes if you are tired,
I will find you in your dreams.
Sleep peacefully,
imagine a great world of things unseen.
Don’t let reality take it all away,
close your weary eyes child,
come out and play.
I will shield you from your demons,
I will shield you from your terrors.
I will hold your heart tightly,
never losing grip.
Let the past go, don’t fret over tomorrow,
live freely with me today,
say goodbye to your sorrows.
Close your eyes if you are tired,
dream the pain away.
Sleep peacefully darling,
for I am here to stay.

Posted 5 months ago

Flickering flame

Sometimes I want to kiss you
And sometimes I want to strangle you
But I’m sure you feel the same
I can’t handle hearing about the other girls
Even though its my fault I pushed you away
Please understand my hearts a flickering flame
The fire goes out
Darkness consumes me again
Until another spark has been made

Posted 5 months ago

Past Lovers

I can feel the coals resting in the pit of my heart,
their embers still warm to the touch,
but nothing hot enough to get my blood pumping like before.
My heart beats still,
yet it never forgets a past lover.
Often I day dream into memories in hopes of igniting a new spark,
but it’s hard to light up a heart that was most likely born dark.

I remember my head on his shoulder on the front lawn,
I felt fragile and frail like a new born fawn.
My arms stretched around you,
my eyes lost in the blue abyss searching for clouds to giggle at.
I remember how I felt that moment,
I knew I loved you then,
but the spark that grew into a flame died,
just like so many other times.

I remember being 16 and scared to death,
lying on an unfamiliar bed or an older boy.
Deflowered and dead inside,
for I was still a child.
I felt nothing for you but regret,
a feeling I’m all too familiar with.
But I forgave,
he would forget,
just like so many other times.

I remember snuggling in my bed,
it had been so long but you resurrected the flame.
It was late, early morning, I had snuck you in,
our lips didn’t touch we just talked for hours on end.
I thought the world was playing tricks on me,
you were such a perfect being,
but I soon noticed looks can be deceiving.
I don’t think about how you left,
I just think about that time spent when things felt alright,
just like so many other times.

I remember walking past you in the hallways,
I tried to look so cool.
I thought you would get it, get me,
but you only wanted to get in me.
I remember those late night phone calls,
I would constantly ask you what was so wrong with me,
but you would just plead the 5th,
asking for nudes.
I wanted to give you it all,
but my all was too much,
not enough,
just like so many other times.

I remember lying on our backs reading books,
I would rest my head on your shoulder.
You were smitten,
I was broken,
we both decided we clashed the wrong way.
We blamed time,
but I blame myself and these past lovers,
I keep them close to me,
like you do your books on shelves.
I’m unable to love,
I’m unable to give affection,
but I’ll admit I’m jealous when you look in any other girls direction..
just like so many other times.

Each memory a little more hurtful,
but the pain is valuable in some way.
Each lover taking a piece of me,
just like so many other times.
And now I’m okay with just these memories,
I’d much rather explore the forest than stay in one tree.
And the coals are still warm,
ready to awake,
or maybe I’m content alone anyway.

Posted 7 months ago

Pick up the phone

There are a million and one reasons why I love myself,
but it never seems to be enough.

I believe in two types of love,
the kind you give and the kind you receive.

I want to be the giver,
as well as the receiver.

I’m waiting for someone to pick up the phone,
dial my number and while it rings count how many times your heart skips and flutters.

I love me, myself, and I,
but there’s something about the company of another soul that navigates the misery elsewhere.

When you feel as cold as ice I will be the fire to warm your veins,
giving you a taste of life again.

As long as you don’t leave me high and dry,
as long as I don’t have to be my own best friend.

Pick up the phone,
pick up the phone,
I am the receiver.

Collect calls are worth the time,
I am the giver.

There is plenty of love left in this heart on the other line,
pick up the phone,
pick up the phone.

Posted 1 year ago

Slice me up.

Blood drippin’ from my wrist,
I dug too deep.
Been up for hours,
I don’t waste time on sleep,
or countin’ sheep.
The blade slips from my hands,
I’m grabbin’ on to my seat.
I’ve got no balance,
can’t stand on my own two feet.
I’ve been diggin’ this grave for years,
I bet it’s deeper than 6 feat.
Mary Jane is the only one who cares,
the only one who’s sweet.
She takes away my troubles,
I’m numb to what destroys me.
I want to live my life,
I want to run so far away I forget everything.
Just sit back, relax,
count the smoke rings,
let my thoughts free. 
Blood drippin’ from my wrist,
no one can save me.
Nothing to take away my pain,
or this fucking grief.
My mom even thinks I’m crazy,
tryna put my ass in therapy.
What they don’t know,
or see,
is they’d be better off without me. 

Posted 1 year ago

I’ll care.

You want someone to be there,
someone to care.
A hand to hold,
a throat to coke,
another bowl to smoke.
I know how it feels to be alone,
a dog without its bone,
living in a house that’s not a home.
You need someone to hold on,
always there, never gone.
I need you to stick around,
pick me up when I hit the ground.
Spin’ my head round and round,
fuck me til’ I can’t make a sound.
Looking for somethin’ permanent,
got a hard on like cement,
and I won’t ask you to repent,
'cause even I love to sin.
You want someone to be there,
what if I told you I cared?
What if I said I’ve been there,
and back. 
Serious like a heart attack,
let you put me on my back,
moanin’ til the sun rises,
and it’s time to pack.
I don’t plan on leaving,
'cause you got me feeling,
things I’ve never felt before,
got me coming back for more.
If you are the sea,
I promise I’ll be your shore.

Posted 1 year ago

What do you want.

I don’t need to be saved,
I’m not another damsel in distress.
Just get that ass over here,
unzip this sun dress.
My life’s a mess,
my hearts a ship wreck,
but I’m not lookin’ for a hand out,
I got all hands on deck.
Fuck all the petty tramps,
I got more class,
a fatter ass,
and any test you give I’m guaranteed to pass.
I don’t need anyone,
or anything.
Yes I like the finer things,
but I don’t need a diamond ring.
Just get into bed with me,
make my skin crawl,
and watch my body sing,
like a canary.
I promise I’m not crazy,
just want you to call me maybe,
cause I don’t play games baby.
You’re all I want,
you’re what I might need,
but if you don’t know what you want,
then you can’t fuck with me.

Posted 1 year ago

I used to be heartless, but look at me now.

I wake up, you’re in my head
my thoughts are fucked
I feel brain dead.
Numb, yet feeling everything
fast heart beats
nothing’s subtle here.
My dear,
I don’t wish to be played with,
but I don’t wish to be feared.
I’ve been stabbed in the heart
by many hunters with their spears.
Lubricate before you use,
grind my gears.
My head hits the pillow,
I’m hoping for sweet dreams,
not nightmares.
I feel like I’m on drugs,
when I’m with you,
the whole world needs a fuckin’ group hug.
When you’re gone,
it feels like my hearts been mugged.
I’m tired of the lies,
the bruises and the shame.
I never wanted anything more,
than to screw the player at his own game.
But everything is different now.
I met you,
and every time you walk away I turn around,
to see if you’re lookin’ back too.
I don’t wanna be another tally mark,
I don’t wanna have to cross my heart,
and hope to die,
but for you I think I’d give it a try.




 

Posted 1 year ago

Uncertainty

I want you to unravel me
but I don’t speak a single word of it.
I blush like a school girl
waiting for you to check yes,
or no. 
My body aches from past pains
and I have little faith in love, or even like
for you I think I’d try though.

 

Posted 1 year ago

You make me sick.

I gag and choke until I puke.
I am thinking of you,
again.
The smell of vomit on my dress hits me hard.
Its scent burns my nostrils,
and I’m hugging the toilet one more.
I am detoxing.
Every memory of you was shit.
Blood seeps out my nose and slinks down my throat.
It reaches my heart,
a now bottomless pit.
You are what made me so sick.
There’s no subtle way to fix this,
so I must simply end it.
With the slice of a razor,
and a steady wrist,
you know longer have my arm to twist.
An angel then kisses my vomit lips.
She takes me to a place that smells of lavender and freshly washed sheets,
instead of beer and piss.
I am free to forget you now,
free to live.

Posted 1 year ago

Words of wisdom.

Words of wisdom.
Keep your heart guarded,
it may have wings but it’s not meant to fly.
Get your head out of the clouds,
the oxygen is better down here.
Never ever dance with the devil,
your sins will make you who you are.
Keep a straight and steady path,
and you shall be rewarded greatly.

Now fuck everything I just said,
do the exact opposite.
Live your life how you want,
you don’t owe the world anything.

Words of true wisdom.
Always listen to your heart,
trust in its wings as you’ll soar.
Keep your head in the clouds, in outer space,
a little day dreaming never hurt anybody.
Dance with whom ever you please,
in your life there will be plenty evil and plenty good around you.
You make your own path, follow your gut, take pride in your mistakes, you’re only human,
in return life will deal you the cards you deserve.

You are the wise one.

Posted 1 year ago

Whiskey Lungs

Liquid death
I drink the whiskey
It slips throughout my body
Fills my lungs up
This is a certain kind of sadness